July 29, 2013

Hey Guys!

This week was pretty good. We had a couple of good lessons but I really feel like I´m below my potential. We have been struggling the last few weeks and I find myself thinking about home more and more. I feel bad for my comp we should be working harder but I don´t feel like he is helping me. Yesterday he didn´t get out of bed till 8. I feel like he is deader then I am and he doesn´t even have a year yet. A few changes ago I would have gotten him out of bed. I have always forced my junior comps to be as obedient as me but with him I just kind of stopped worrying about it. If he doesn´t want to whatever.  This week I am doing divisions with the Zone Leaders so I hope that helps keep me more focused. I never thought dieing would be so hard. But I find I have to push myself a lot to do a lot of things. Like the other night we got out of a lesson late really far from home like 18 blocks. As soon as they shut the door I started running we had 8 minutes to make it. An any change of my mission I would have spirited it out, but after 4 blocks, thoughts came into my head like "Why am I running, this is stupid. I don´t want to run anymore it is way to far we will probably make it home anyway." So I stopped and my comp stopped and we walked a block. I was really hoping deep down my comp would be like come on lets go dale Vamos but he didn´t say a word. So I had to dig really hard and I started running again. We made it home at 1032ish. If we hadn´t walked we would have made it. Your probably thinking he is worried about 2 minutes that's stupid (but as I have always said those 2 minutes were the difference between being obedient and disobedient). But really that wasn´t what bothered me. It was more the fact that I felt inside like a Dead Missionary. I really scared me I and discouraged me a little that had almost let my self stop caring. I really want to finish strong! Like I said this week I'm doing divisions with the ZLs and I really hope that encourages me. But I am struggling, I have never been with a comp for so long, more then 3 months when it is all said and done it will have been 4 1/2 months.   

Anyway time to talk about something else. Today we played fútbol it was a lot of fun as always. One of the Sisters left a few weeks ago and we have a new one. So now the sisters participate which is good but it is still hard. Like a few weeks ago. I called the sisters on Monday to tell them about district meeting on Tuesday. One sister said Elder can we eat with you. I don´t know if I was distracted or what but I said sure thinking they wanted to eat in the church with everyone since in changes pasted they always went strait home to eat. The next day after DM everyone was making there own lunch while the sisters read there letters. We finished and just sat down to eat and I remember thinking what are the sisters going to make. When they come in and say Elder Wray is there enough food for us? One elder thought it was a joke and started laughing when no one else laughed he stopped and it got really quite. I looked around and said yea there is some Fideos over there and the other elders have some hamburgers. But they realized we didn´t make food for them and went home. I felt so bad but apologized a couple times and they forgave me. Then Last Tuesday I guess I didn´t learn my lesson. I figured they would have learned that everyone brings there own food but after the meeting they just left. I had to go to the store to buy milk when the Sisters call me. Elder Wray do you have enough food for us? I was like are you kidding me?? They were lucky I was in the store so I bought some more noodles and milk to make a cream or they would have been out of lunch again. That lunch was really gross though so I hope the same thing doesn´t happen tomorrow, we will see. Mainly because I only have like 2 bucks left till the first and I have the take the bus tomorrow which cost two bucks we will see what happens. I don´t know how I will get home. 

Speaking of money could you guys send me some money to buy a couple more souvenirs. Also dad we get about 3300 pesos a month which is about 165 dollars I think. Not that much but it is kind of complicated because the reimburse some things like 200 pesos of fruit a month and most buses. Next week I am going to Colonia and wanted to buy a couple things I also am going to Deo the 8 and maybe will buy something there. 

I rode for an hour yesterday on bus home from a leadership meeting with the Zone Leaders. I was with Elder Millan. They just finished having there ZL meeting with president this past week and he gave me the inside info. The whole mission is going to change and it makes me sad to go home I love this work and can see the changes will make things a whole lot better just wish i could see it all. They haven´t announced anything till zone conference the 8th so I will let you know then what happens.  

Anyway I have to wrap things up. I'm trying to finish strong!

Love You All

Love 

Elder Wray

P.S. Say hi to everyone and I got my return time 4:00 P.M. Spokane airport the 21st of august. They couldn´t get me home with Ben. It was that time or 10:30 pm to Lewiston. Love you